for all of the music i’ve made, all of the songs i’ve written, the truth is that i don’t really have any idea what i’m doing.
i played the viola for three or four years in school, but i don’t remember anything about it.
when i was about 10, my father taught me basic chords on the guitar. then, i had a little keyboard in my room that i taught myself basic piano chords on. and that is pretty much the limit of my musical education. everything else has just been me making it up as i go.
on one hand, there are times when i impress myself. like, “this thing i wrote is pretty decent, and i don’t even know what i’m doing.”
on the other hand, i have never really felt at ease with other musicians because i don’t really know their language. i put an ad on craigslist one time to try and find people to play music with, and met this guy who was really amazing, but he was talking to me about modes and theory. i had no idea what any of it meant. i still don’t. he drew the chart pictured in this post, and spent an hour talking to me about it. no clue.
i just play what i know until something new occurs to me, and there isn’t really any way to make that sound exciting or magical. sometimes i feel kind of like people are probably able to instantly identify the lack of expertise in my music the second they hear it, which is kind of embarrassing.
but ultimately, i think it’s more important to me to try and create works of genuineness than it is to try and create works of genius. so maybe it all works out.